Because I don't know when to shut up. I assume people who don't want to hear it are skipping all these entries anyway at this point, so I suppose it's alright.

In short - I still do love her, and I want everything to work out and to be happy again. However, I'm being to increasingly face the reality of the situtation, which is that I'm not sure it can, not without some major changes.

She asked, or more correctly, ordered me to delete the last entry I made on this subject. When I more or less refused, she blocked me again. She's probably angry at me for saying she did this, even. However, this is one of the few morals I won't cross - a commitment to letting the truth of the matter be known, and of standing by what I've said. I've never deleted an entry from my journal, even the ones that I knew in retrospect I probably should, and I'm not going to now - besides, I feel that there are definately some mixed signals going on here - first she's angry that people don't know the truth, now she's angry that they do.

So, this is where I stand right now. Your move, Claudia.